The Mirror Days

 Today was one of those mirror days.

You know, when you look and look and somehow see nothing good at all.

I was getting ready for school and I felt that familiar tight feeling in my chest — like a knot that won’t untangle. My brain started whispering all the old lies again: “You’re not enough. You should be smaller. You should be different.”

Old me would’ve believed it immediately.
But now I’m trying something new.

I rolled out my yoga mat — it’s this blue one with little moons on it — and I just sat there. I didn’t even do a whole routine. I just breathed. I tried to feel my body, not judge it. After a few minutes, I wrote in my journal:

“My body is trying its best. I don’t have to fight it today.”

It didn’t magically fix everything, but it helped me get through morning without spiraling.
And for me, that’s a win.

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